keep fighting my dear vien

there's always a reason that why on earth we met.. and it's always fate that brought us together.. chances has been given all the time.. and not holding on has been the continuous reason that we disconnected in the end.

memories are the sweetest thing that all the miracles happened and located deeply inside my heart..

it might be not as simple as to vacuum all the memories and left it blank.. coz those memories are the most precious one that i treasure all this while.. things seems tough when u try hard to forget and sweep away the memories.. no matter how long it takes.. it will be invisible without realizing.. it's been years , and i've given myself lots of time to come over all these heartbroken memories. and yes, things don bother me anymore. somehow, sometime at some moment.. memories strike into my mind again.. where i start to care again.. telling myself one day i will get rid of this feeling.  

dearest of mine

dear precious one, 

One day we might be far apart from each other..

Another day we might meet again..

Life is all about miracles..

I never thought that we'll come to this stage..where we give each other a chance to communicate and care each other..

Till a point where we realized we love each other so much..

Yet the sweetest thing is always the shortest moment in life..

I cherish and embrace every moment spend with you..

No matter what happen in the future, I'll always keep you in my heart.

A place that no one knows

A place that only you belong

Love you most.. dear

期望着那一天的来临

曾经 有那么一个他 陪伴在我身边 度过一切愉快和不愉快的 有的没的...

他听见我心底的声音 可是总是没办法保护那颗心

结果 只能 祝福我 快乐的生活

不知不觉 他也慢慢地离开我

 从此 就没有那么开心过了

开心的 也没再那么真实了

难过的时间 也该停了

很希望 有一天 也能慢慢地

找回那真实的我

停顿了那么久

是时候 继续走 那不完美的路

希望下一个他

不会这样的

留下我一个人

..............

For your viewing pleasure

Recently, here goes the conversation - 

Mr: haiz...u thought nowadays, girls can be so easily tackle? 

Ms: haiz...what i know is if u don put effort, then don't hope u can be with her. no effort no talk

Mr: put in effort already, somehow still need to wait..

Ms: wait for gold drop from sky?... u wait or she ask u to wait

Mr: she ask me to wait.... lol...how i know what u girls thinking...

Ms: if a guy very committed but didn't ask the girl to be with him?

Mr: obviously the guy wants to protect the girl... cause he's not ready yet? or might worry that he will hurt the girl if he didn't do well... n worry  that he couldn't give any happiness to the girl..

Ms: why must take things so complicated?

Mr: hehehe...He just wants the girl lives happily with him...

I'm thinking, if love is something that can be measure..it can be categorize as barter system.

well, it's actually a indescribable miracle that happens between two nature..

In believing that nothing can break the bond that they have towards each other all this while

Neither arguments, long distance relationship, nor the unexpected things that happen, yet the trust, faith, care and love will still be there..

It can be simple as that when you believe..

For the one who always be there and read my post.

I sincerely appreciate your time for me which actually encouraged me alot to blog..

For those who didn't know, I actually inactivate the account just because of discouragement from someone that i used to love so much

Surprisingly, I'm glad that I'm now totally get rid of all these and be the one that I'm comfortable with and most important thing is the unlimited happiness in my life

It's been years that I could not forget those memories and being living in the past

Hence, best friend of mine who knows me so well curious about how can it be?

....without realizing

there's someone who walks into my life

we do chat, text, talk... yet haven't get the chance to mingle around or hang out together

Time past just in a glance..

We've been like this for sometimes

just at that moment

a feeling comes to me, that makes me feel weird  

 how come there's feeling of care, worry, curiosity, and etc 

More and more of these feelings just appear without i realizing..

I tried to avoid

was thinking as it happens only when two person work things out together

...this is the moment when i realize who's actually in my heart

and should be the one who deserve

thanks for the one who bring me out form the past

am now satisfy with everything around me

..love anonymous

The Journey

我希望 他会一路在我身边

无论在哪里

都永远不会放弃我的那个守护者

累的时候 能支撑我

开心的时候 能一起分享

不开心的时候 能逗我开心

至少人生其实感觉到奇迹的出现

怎么。。

奇迹

会那么稀有 

...what i know all this while...is this..

when i do get into a relationship with someone,

i would want to keep discovering all his little quirks and understand our differences even more and work towards bridging that rather than judge and blame him for not being aligned with my ideals when things aren't so rosy.

i'd like us to have or at least develop a deeper sense of mutual respect towards each other's differences, knowing that we definitely and probably always will have some sort of friction or disagreement at different points in our relationship but fundamentally, we understand and accept each of us has the right to our own thoughts, feelings, values and ideals..but we'd work together to make it work.

Just because we really want to.

Because continuing to love someone isn't just a feeling.

It's a choice.

And it takes effort. Mutual effort.

I believe that someone in this world right now, the guy i'd end up spending the rest of my life with..probably hopes and wants the same ..

and someday...

our someday will happen.